A time comes in everyone’s life when they regret one of their decisions and they wish to go back in the time to change or reverse their wrong decisions. Now I am at this point in my life, I did a mistake and now I regret and wish if I could change things.
I was stalking my ex-boyfriend’s social media account to see how he is doing. I was going through his photographs and realized that he is married now. It took me a few minutes to accept it. I started looking at his wife’s photos closely. She is very beautiful!
My relationship with Sam started on a good note and things were going quite smooth also. We used to go on dates and long drives. We used to enjoy each other’s company. In less time we developed a good bond. We got physical in between this time. He was good in bed. But things between us started to change after a few years of our relationship.
And suddenly we came at that point of our relationship when my financial needs overpowered my love for him. He was an ordinary job going to the man and was earning an average. Sam had to take care of his family and other social responsibilities. So, he used to have less money to spend on me and this irritated me because he couldn’t get me things I demanded.
My ex-boyfriend was good looking and loved me with all his loyalty. Sam supported me every time. He tried to do everything for me to keep me happy. But ignoring everything good in him and all his genuine efforts, I thought about his financial status. My parents were continuously asking me to leave Sam due to his money status.
My parents filled so many negative thoughts in my mind against him and his financial conditions that when he couldn’t fulfill my wishes, I decided to leave him. I got so influenced by my parents that nothing else came into my mind and I left. I couldn’t see his love and I left.
My ex-boyfriend did every effort to stop me but I was determined to leave him. I wanted to be with someone who could get me everything I needed. I wanted someone who could get me diamond rings and precious gifts. He was upset because his feelings for me were true. All his dreams to live with me were coming to an end.
After leaving my ex-boyfriend, my parents found a good and rich match for me and I too got married. My parents appreciated me for my decision of leaving Sam. They were happy with what I did, but I was not. I was regretting deep inside.
I left him for money and today I am married to a rich guy. My husband can get me everything, he even got me a diamond ring and my own personal car but what is the use of this marriage when there is no love between us. Everyone thinks that my husband loves me but the truth is he loves his money more than anything else.
My husband doesn’t value my feelings and doesn’t respect me like my ex-boyfriend used to. And I regret it now. I wish I could have chosen love instead of money. I wish I could have chosen Sam over my parents. But I know nothing is going to change.
Now, after going through his photos and looking at his wife, I regret my decision. If I would have valued his feelings and love for me, it could have been me on his side as his wife and not someone else. She is beautiful and happy also with Sam in his arms.
They went on their honeymoon and they were looking happy. She was looking satisfied. It didn’t seem like my ex-boyfriend still misses me or even remembers me. They both look good together and make a perfect couple. They are enjoying every bit of their life and here I am regretting my mistakes.
This is a kind of pain and regret which only I can feel and no one else. No one will ever understand how much guilt I am having inside me and how it is eating me from inside. I did it for my parents and society, who are happy as well but with this one decision, I have lost all my happiness.
It could have been me with Sam in those photographs as his wife. People would have been calling our pair a perfect one just like I am saying it right now for them. I wish my love for Sam would have overpowered my greed for money.
He is earning good enough now. I saw one of the photographs he gifted his pretty wife a diamond ring which I always wanted on my finger. He bought a new car and home also. He is doing well in his job and growing well.
But it is all gone now and I am regretting. I am wishing if I can get back what all I have lost. But deep down I know this is not going happen and Sam is not going to leave her because of her beauty, figure and maybe her nature as well.
Looking at my ex-boyfriend’s beautiful wife, I feel like she might be good in bed as well. She might satisfy his physical needs also. They look happy in their married life. His photographs are telling me everything.
The guilt of leaving my ex-boyfriend because of money and not being by his side instead of his beautiful wife is going to live inside me till my last breath. This whole episode had taught me a big lesson I will always remember. After this, I will suggest everyone to not to repeat the mistake I made and value the feelings of your partner.
Money is a small thing that a person will keep on earning throughout their life. It is easy to earn money but to earn love is tough. You get only one life, so live it on your own terms and do not waste it for social pressure. Don’t think about the society just focus on what you want. Once the time is go away you are not going to get this life back. So, live it to the fullest. Live it the way you want because trust me regrets are bad.